The Life Of JellyBean

Day who-knows-what

JellyBean — Mon, 27 Apr 2009 00:41:18 +0000

I seem to lose all track of time during the summer. It’s wonderful. My last summer off.. horrible.

Tomorrow:

10:00AM – Wake up & crest white strips
10:30AM – (Breakfast) 1 egg white w/ 1 banana
11:00AM – Jump rope for 15 minutes
12:30PM – Stationary Bike for 30 minutes
1:30PM – (Lunch) Tuna w/ whole wheat bread
2:45PM – 20 minutes walk
4:30PM – (Dinner) Lettuce w/ dressing and chopped egg whites
Programming
6:00PM – Bathroom: Squats, Lunges, etc.
6:20PM – Shower
7:00PM – Take birth control
8:30PM - (Snack) 1 granola bar
Kung Fu Panda
11:00 PM – Bathroom: Dance & crest white strips
12:00PM – Sleep

urghhh

JellyBean — Sun, 26 Apr 2009 02:07:31 +0000

I feel incredibly gross and full right now from all the damn chocolate, and cheesecake and who knows what else. Seriously. Doesn’t help that I have to just sit around for a bit because I fucked up my leg and can barely walk straight. Honestly..

Tomorrow is go time. Back to eating healthy, exercising like a nut bag and losing weight. I would love to be 125lbs by… lets say… May 9th. That’s 2 weeks to lose about 6lbs.

Then by May 23rd, I should be 120lbs. And finally June 6th, I should be 115lbs. AND I’M DONE!! Then it’s just maintain, workout, maintain, workout. tehehe.

Awkwarddd haha

JellyBean — Fri, 24 Apr 2009 18:07:17 +0000

So I had my physical today. Oh boy. First of all, my appointment was for 12pm. They finally got to me at fucking 1:30pm!! I went in, and she took my blood pressure. Then out of NO WHERE she’s like “Unhook your bra.” I was like “…sorry?” I literally thought she was going to rape me =/ hahaha. Anyway, I had to tell her that I was on my birth control because it was going to show up in my blood work. I really hope my mother doesn’t find out. Technically, she shouldn’t because I’m 18 years old. But you never know!!

Then she started feeling up my boobs and looking at them all weird. Ugh. So damn uncomfortable. I need to get my pap smear soon times too. I can’t believe they’re going to look at me up there.

Diet going well. Did 10 mins of jumping rope already today. Which is exciting news. 30 mins of stationary bike + squats + lunges + bicep curls, etc. and I should be set for the day.

What I’ve eaten today:

Egg white + Tuna w/ 1 slice of whole wheat bred
1 slice of deli turkey + 1 slice chedder cheese w/ 1 slice of whole wheat bread
1 Chicken breast + 1 cup red peppers + 1/4 cup of corn on brown rice
1/4th a bagel
1 mixed nuts and fruits granola bar

Wow. I went overboard on carbs today. I suck. Not as many carbs tomorrow Promise!

Oh. And I ended up with a 75% in calculus class. Destoryed my 4.0! I am so fucking mad. But, I guess I deserved it. Fucking Chris. He’s always poking around in my shit. If i wanted to know MY mark, i would have emailed Paul like he said we could. Where does he fit into all that? He KNOWS how mad i get about privacy because I rarely get any of it. People read my mail, people poke around in all my shit when im gone to school, my sisters go through my facebook/email. When i get a call at home, my parents “accidently” pick up the other line. and then HE goes and try to find shit out that has NOTHING to do with him. If he knows i tell him ANYWAY, why would he go and find out? he have no right to. He could have just waited to find out. But instead, he chose to take it upon himself. Point is. consent was not given, and trust is lost. He needs to get out of my business before I kick him in the face. I’m furious.

…on the brightside. Baby emailed me. I knew he would to try and keep in touch with me. What a gorgeous guy.

Awesome!

JellyBean — Fri, 24 Apr 2009 01:38:32 +0000

The post before this one was written yesterday, but for some reason it says today’s date on it. Weird?? WordPress is spazzing on me? Or maybe I editted it. Hm, can’t remember.

I found out that I finished with a 92% in business class! I was so happy and excited. Gosh, I hope all of my marks are that good. I feel so freakin’ smart.

Since it’s the summer now, if I don’t get a job, I’m thinking I go to the library everyday from 11am-2pm. I hope my parents are going to be okay with it. They don’t trust me at all. I wish I could just go and sit in the library the entire day, but I’m rarely ever allowed out. I feel so sheltered and babied. It’s ridiculous. I mean, why is it such a crime to go and want to read the entire day? It’s not like I’d be lying, or reading bad magazines with nekkid people in them. For fuck sakes, I just want to learn so I can be ahead of all the other kids in September when school starts up again.

As for the weight loss. My sister has lost 4lbs already (apparently). She looks like the same blob to me. I asked her what she had to eat today, and what does she say? “A lean cuisine, chocolate, and ice cream cone” You fucking IDIOT. If you’re going to count calories, WHY are you eating foods high in fat, carbs and sodium?! Oh boy. And she didn’t even go to the gym today. She was supposed to go “every day.” See! Now you see why I got so mad when she started the diet with me. I’m looking for something long term, and she’s looking to lose weight for her dessert party. Lose weight (in a terrible, unhealthy way) for a day where you’re going to gain more weight (in a terrible, unhealthy way.) FUCK!!

On the brightside though, at least I’m looking better. I’m down about 6lbs already, standing at 130.7lbs today (or was, last time i checked). And people have even told me that my ass, and thighs look smaller. 2 weeks and 6lbs gone. Everyone says it’s always easier to lose weight in the beginning, so I’m waiting to hit a plateau I just hope it doesn’t happen any time soon, because it’ll just shatter my confidence. All the confidence it took me 2 weeks to build up.

Anywhooo. Doctors appointment tomorrow. Hope it goes well, and she doesn’t poke around in places she shouldn’t be poking around in =/

Odd Day

JellyBean — Thu, 23 Apr 2009 03:29:36 +0000

Today wasn’t odd because something weird happened — odd because it wasn’t like an ordinary day for me. I woke up around 8:30ish. Ate breakfast, which was pretty darn big because I woke up feeling really light headed and I had my data communications exam today at 1pm. I didn’t want to pass out in it, and wanted a meal to last me till that long. Had my multivitamin, and went off with my dad to his xray exam.Apparently there’s something wrong with his breathing? I don’t know. It’s all kind of a scary thought.

My mom wants all of my family to make an appointment for a physical, since we all haven’t had one since about 5 years ago. It seems theres something wrong with my mom, little sister and dad. So my family doctor wants us to get checked soon too. I just know she’s going to tell my older sister to lose weight. She is SO morbidly obese, it’s disgusting. Gosh. I wish she’d see that and stop eating as much as she does. She’s let her bad habits go on for so long though, that it might be a lot harder for her than it is for me.

My diet was pretty darn huge today. But I don’t feel guilty about it at all since it was all fruits, veggies and seafood. I’ve also decided to up my exercise to 60 minutes of cardio everyday (Except sunday, which is my day off) and then just do squats, crunches, lunges, flutter kicks etc with weights throughout the week.

My baby left today for his school exam. I wish I could go to the UK with him too. I have to look amazing for when he comes back. I wonder how many lbs I can lose in 50 days. It’s not a lot of time, I know. But at least if I look a little bit better than the train wreck I am now, he’ll see that I’m trying. He’s a health nut, so the fact that he’ll constantly have a fat girl on his side just eats me up inside and makes me keep this up.

My schooling is going good so far. Officially finished my first year of university. Gosh, it went by so damn fast. Only 3 more years til I graduate. Incredibly worried about my calculus mark. I just know that it’s going to destory my 4.0GPA and I’ll be sitting there crying my eyes out =[ fuckfuck.

The Start of a new Beginning

JellyBean — Tue, 21 Apr 2009 21:38:32 +0000

This is my very first wordpress blog on this site! I really hope it stays up. I’m not sure how much space I get on this thing, but if it’s not a lot, then I’m going to be sad I just need enough space to do my daily ramblings.

My sister started my diet with me today. She’s so fucking annoying. Only doing it because I am and she copies everything I eat. She even goes and buys Lean Cuisine today to eat it. What a fucking MORON? It’s loaded with sodium. But she only understands the calories in a food, and seeing as how it’s less than 200, she’ll eat it.

1.) She’s wasting her money on foods that are more expensive because they’re “better” for you.

2.) She’s wasting my money, because she eats all of my food and multi-vitamins.

3.) She walks around the house, poking around me whenever I enter the kitchen to see what I’m about to eat

4.) She acts like she knows everything about weight loss. Well, if you knew all about it, you wouldn’t be an obese fuck right now, would you?! Okay, tecnically, I wouldn’t either. But at least I’ve stuck to it for almost 2 weeks now and have seen improvements in my body.

And to top it all off.. This Saturday she’s having a dessert party for which she’s going to go off her diet for. And once she goes off for one night, she doesn’t go back on for at least another month! What a waste of time. Honestly.

Moving on, though. My diet is going fantastically well. Today was a bit of an off day for me, but I deserve to indulge once in awhile. Slow and steady wins the race I had 2 strawberry fibre bars, lemon chicken w/ brown rice, an open faced chicken/cheese sandwich and a few grapes. I think tomorrow I shall have 1 egg white and granola bar for breakfast, open faced tuna on wheat bread, and vegetable/shrimp brown rice for dinner. All of this contains close to no sodium, no grease, no trans fat, plenty of proteins and packed with vitamins.

Current weight: 132lbs

On a side note — Had my java exam today. Easy as 1,2,3. I so ended up with an A in that class. I love it! I’m scared shitless of calculus. That final exam mark will pretty much make or break my 4.0GPA. And I have my last exam tomorrow for Data Communications! Then it’s summer partay timee! Oh, and time to look for a full time job